Surviving with God (my personal story) by Brenda There were many broken bridges in my life.  These bridges where collapsed when it was too painful to look back.  Left behind on the other side of these bridges was a little piece of me.  Someone to tend the memories so when the day came I had the courage to look back the truth wouldn’t be lost.  Somehow inwardly I knew that the truth couldn’t stay hidden forever and I would want to know my history. Then came the business of mending those bridges.  Reconnecting the present with the past so that the attending caretakers can reunite and add their piece to the puzzle, the task of putting back together that which should have never been broken apart, my very spirit. God has put me here on earth with a will to survive, and a need to keep going no matter how hard it gets.  He has given me many reasons to want to go on in this life.  My family (my husband and children) and my brothers and sisters in Christ among them. He has also given me a hunger for the truth.  I know that with the truth freedom will come. (John 8:32) Though life isn't always easy.  The end is already assured. I am more than a conqueror! (Romans 8:36-39)  God made many promises in His Word, the Bible.  One of the most important ones is that he will not give us more than we can handle. (1 Corinthians 10:13)  The other one that sticks out in my mind as I write is that in which He promises that He will not leave us without the comfort of his Spirit. (John 14:16)  We have one thing, just one, which He asks us to do and that, is to believe in Him!  To believe that His promises are true!  He has promised so much and all He asks of us is to have faith that His Word is true!  I hope in sharing with you my most private and painful thoughts and experiences that there can be a new understanding for survivors.  I have run into all kinds of people.  Those with much sympathy and are willing to offer their support and prayers, to those who rebuke me as the devil himself.  God never intended for His children to be tortured and tormented.  But there are those who in their own illness and depravity, have literally shattered the spirits of God’s most precious. I hope the new awareness that you find in what I share with you, will bring you a heart of compassion for the innocent. I pray that you protect those who are the most helpless of God’s creation, our children. If you find that you can relate to what I have been through.  I ask you to please contact me.  I am in no way an expert or a trained therapist.  I’m a survivor just like you may be or know.  But I want you to know the truth about you and your past or that the one you care about can be free. But most of all the truth that God Loves You!  He wants to make us whole.  He wants us to be free and happy!  He wants us to be the beautiful creation He intended us to be when we where conceived! Return To OnEagleWings © 2006